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Thu, May. 8th, 2008, 11:28 am
Quarter Life Crisis

Apparently I'm the wikipedia definition of a quarter life crisis. I feel like I'm awkwardly blending into a life I don't want to have, in a place I don't want to be, with people I don't want to be around. I don't know what most people do at this point, but I'm jumping out of planes, riding motorcycles, dating inappropriate men and waiting nervously for one of us to circle 'maybe'. Oh well, I'll get over it I'm sure, or maybe I'll come to rest in this love I'm falling into and the awkwardness will go away. You are, after all, the most comfortable thing in my life. Either way, one of us is going to end up with a broken heart, and right now I'm hoping that will be me because I don't want to hurt you.

Tomorrow, I jump.

Sat, May. 10th, 2008 04:16 pm (UTC)
pandaflower

We will always be exactly who we are and in the end of all things will come to that realization and either decide that what we have been doing either is or isn't our self and act accordingly. You can only live outside yourself for so long before you realize that it doesn't fit within yourself. The truth always comes. It just takes different amounts of time. If something nags at you from the beginning then you already know the outcome, but we still spend the time finding out things we predicted for ourselves. If only I/we could learn to recognize that for what it is instead of ignoring it like we do to most good advice.

I was thinking about you the other day and forgetting that we were journal pals decided to attempt to journal year 23. Then remembering that you might be here waiting for me. Good to read you.

Mon, May. 12th, 2008 02:47 pm (UTC)
aubergine_dream

Thanks! You're always so insightful.
I've actually not written in here in almost a year, then I saw you start again and thought it was a good idea, even if it only lasts a short while.